Showing posts with label heartache. Show all posts
Showing posts with label heartache. Show all posts

Friday, April 1, 2016

A Storm is Coming

They talk in short text messages peppered through the day. She tells him about her harried evening, a book she's been reading, and an incident at the store, while he tells her about his ongoing project, his travel plans and the quaint restaurant around the corner that serves the most divine kebabs. Simple, nondescript conversations that randomly meander through the mundane everyday.

But conversations have their own momentum. They gather you as acquaintances through polite pleasantries, then bind you in friendship through shared stories and genuine feeling. Sometimes, just sometimes, talk becomes heroin, pressing you on under its addiction towards an undefined intimacy, an amorphous longing...

She senses it when she checks her phone for a message from him when she wakes up. He doesn't even realise that the last thing he does every night before falling asleep with a smile on his face, is send her a kiss goodnight. Talk, that isn't innocent of yearning anymore.

But she's married, as is he. And somewhere across the kaleidoscope of words and subtle yet urgent attraction, a storm is brewing, gathering dark rain clouds that will carry them away, leaving destruction in its wake. Or wash them clean of their undeniable passion.

But they can't know this. Not now, on this rare, extraordinary morning with clear blue skies that promise only happiness.

"Awake?" he texts.
"No, dreaming," she replies.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Divergence


My love,
You’ve come to meet me
And at first I wonder why,
And then I know
What I have to do
As we're standing here awhile...

Words left unsaid then,
Want to be spoken
And explained,
But the distance
Is so much easier to bear
If only silences remained...

You might breathe easy
And heave a sigh
When I leave and go away,
But I’ll finally exhale,
When I hold back nothing,
When I weep and plead and say...

That I only want
My heart back
‘Coz it just didn’t seem fair
That you keep mine
And keep yours too,
And leave me with despair.

Maybe you’ll return my pride
And the happiness
That you stole in stages.
Then maybe I could slowly
Erase the pain
From distant memory’s pages...

Today I’ll be gone
And the precious feeling
Forever laid to rest,
But if it’s not treasured
And returned with love,
Then maybe it’s for the best.

But you’ll be left
With an empty space
Where my heart once used to be
And then you’ll begin to feel the absence
Of the love that I
Take back with me.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Heartache

Pain…It hits you sometimes, when you least expect it. A word that stirs a memory you’ve tried to repress, a date on the calendar that used to hold some significance, a song that carries you to another time and place…

And when it does, what do you do? Do you stoically veil the pain with a smile and hope that the smile will turn real in time, or do you let the weight of the memories crash into you and run you down?

Maybe you just have to live through it. Let it wash over you before it leaves you, hopefully taking with it some of the hurt, the anguish and the disappointment, so that the next time it strikes, the intensity would have dulled. And you’re left with something resembling hope, not for what is gone, but for the things yet to come.

You realize that maybe you were destined to be together, but only for a while…That though your time has passed, it has left behind with you, answers to questions that used to haunt, and lessons that perhaps no one else could have taught. And finally, you understand that having your happiness so contingent on another person is what eventually breaks your heart…and that it should never have to be that way.

 
Pain…There are no shortcuts to overcoming it, and there are no quick fixes. Maybe you just have to swim through it and do your best to keep from being sucked under. And wait and pray for the wound to heal and for your spirit to be restored.

But then again, who’s to say?
Because sometimes, you don’t recover. You simply survive.