Thursday, January 12, 2012

Striking a Chord


I hear an old Tom Jones song in a movie, and for a moment, the movie is forgotten as the tune takes me back to a time when things had been simpler, and the world, less complicated. It leads me to my childhood home, where I can picture my mother singing the same happy song while making dinner in the kitchen, my dad applying a screwdriver to an old radio he’s been repairing, and my brother and I playing with our dinky toys on the carpet. 

But that was then, and now, I’m the one singing, making dinner, as the music ties my yesterdays with today. 

Sometimes, I watch my little boy stand in front of the computer (yes, that’s where my music plays from) and listen intently to the songs running through my playlist. He asks me to play one or two of his favourites again and this time, without me singing aloud, please. And it strikes me that these songs will find a place in his memories…memories that he will look back upon some day in the distant future, when he’s in a different place maybe, when he chances upon Gary Moore or Pink Floyd playing on the radio, or an old jazz composition that his dad had loved listening to. 

And this music will take him to those carefree days, when he used to enjoy a game of Scrabble with his mom on rainy evenings, or when he read a story book, sitting with his parents on the couch, while they enjoyed a cup of tea together. He will remember the familiar tunes that had flooded the corners of his home then, and it will connect him to the child he used to be…who had been secure in the knowledge that he was loved, and that his world was alright.

And he will feel the same, again. 

The way I feel now, through every note in the music that my parents used to listen to, long ago, and in every melody that my son will recall, long after. 

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Turn Right


We’ve all done it; Looked down the road not taken and wondered what lay at the end of it. And we’ve closed our eyes and tried to imagine what might have been…how life might have been different…how we might have been different.

Sure, we’re making choices all the time, but there are some, which mark the turning points in our lives. These are the choices that eventually define us...that make us who we are. Only, we don’t know it at that time. 

Bangalore, for me, is that road not taken, and the turning point in my life. I return to visit though, and every once in a while, indulge in imagining the alternate destiny I must have forfeited the day I had eloped with my freedom, from the city that was once to have been home. I had turned my back on what my family had planned and thought best for me, along with a future filled with possibilities…one that may have turned out very different from what I know now.

However, when we run away from something, we are also running toward something else, though at that time, the ‘something else’ had been clouded with ambiguity and uncertainty, save for the fact that it felt right somehow; that it would have to be better than what I was leaving behind. But I’m a believing is seeing kind of person, and the path I had paved for myself two decades ago, has brought me to this time and place, with the immensely satisfying awareness that trading those possibilities then, seems insignificant in the light of what I have now, and that life couldn’t have turned out better. 

“Funny...I guess destiny is not the path given to us, but the path we choose for ourselves.” And I agree with Megamind on this, because the future isn’t set in stone. We are constantly changing it through our choices…through both, the paths we take, and those we don’t. And somewhere in those spaces between what we know and what we don’t, between what we can control and what we can’t, lies faith...Faith that things will eventually be okay, and that we will be happier, for having had the courage to listen to our heart.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

It’s a New Year


Time...endless, relentless, infinite.
Life...fragile, fleeting, evanescent.


In the grand scheme of things, we are here, but for a day.


And if we’ve made it to another new year, with more to call our own than we were born with, we have much to be grateful for.

  
 I live another moment.